and in that moment i swear we were infinite.

Gemini horoscope for today:
Whatever held you back recently has changed enough that it's no longer the problem that it was. Surprisingly, the restraint may originate within you, even if it manifested externally. But try not to get lost in philosophical explorations; there's too much that must get done. Control your thoughts by controlling your actions. Eliminating non-essential activities can quickly get your day back on track. tarot.com

I'm no longer holding back. I've had the chance to get to know this boy more and I couldn't be more delighted, and without fear holding me back I feel positively coo coo for him! And I was able to control my actions of physical temptations as I simply enjoy his company and for now that is all we need. I love how these are so accurate! Not to mention that he is just full of inspiration for me. It's sweet because he doesn't mock my dreams and fantasies, but rather embraces them. How many guys let you run around Toys R Us looking at unicorn stuffed animals and listening as you ramble on about how you want a Wonderland themed tea party? And this feeling of affection, yet such freedom is liberating and exhilarating. I feel very lucky.

If everything could ever feel this real forever...

How can it feel this wrong?

Can you imagine having a closet full of pretty white dresses full of lace and tulle?

I play tough as nails with my heart on my sleeve.

Happy Thanksgiving in advanced to all my American and even non-American readers. I think it's a good time for all of us to reflect on the blessings in our lives. Sure, we all have our obstacles and difficulties, some have it worse than others, but I'm sure there is something we all can be thankful for. That something that motivates you to get up in the morning, or that goal that you strive for that gets you through your day. Be sure to stuff up on delicious foods, and perhaps take the time in helping those who aren't as fortunate as yourself. And if you're interested at all, click here to take a look at the reality of the turkey industry.

Here is a list of some of the things I am thankful for:
1. Friends. I know it's cliche, but honestly the friends I have made recently and those that I've known for so long are truly amazing support. They are genuinely good and sweet people and I don't think I could have made the progress I have made in being a better person without them.
2. Family. They have put up with a lot of crap from me, especially my sister and my father, and for that I am eternally thankful. They are compassionate and understanding and I am so grateful to have such a strong backbone in my family.
3. Music. Nothing like both your car speakers and your laptop speakers breaking that makes you realize just how powerful music truly is. I absolutely miss listening to techno in my car, or zoning out to music while working on my laptop, and it makes me grateful because music is a typical passion we all share, one that influences the soul and, if it's especially good, makes my heart race and body shake.
4. Inspiration in fantasies. It's truly a great thing to be inspired, and better to have such a broad motivational topic that I feel I can never run out. I am deeply passionate about fantasies and find everyone’s to be quite fascinating, my own to be my most favorite, of course. Whether it be pretending you are a fairy tale princess or perhaps just envisioning yourself in your dream career. It's so important to dream, to believe, and then in turn, to accomplish. It's something that has helped me get out of the rut in my life and be able to look forward in my life with anticipation and excitement, not to mention motivation to begin my adventures now rather than wait for it to come to me.
5. Life itself. I am thankful for my life. For my opportunities, for my brain, for my intelligence, for my body, for my health, for my lovers and acquaintances, for all the people that have influenced me, for the passions in my life, for all the events in my life, good or bad, that helped me learn and better myself, for my ability to have freedom and opinions, and not be persecuted for it. I am thankful for my life and I cannot wait what life has in store for me in the future.

Our shadows taller than our soul.

Inspiration has returned and I'm so excited! It's still focused around fantasy, but I can feel a new sort of rocker edge to my style. Not a total transformation, as I still want to wear my tights, skirts and heels, but instead pairing it with a band shirt and sex-tousled hair. Perhaps influenced by my latest crush? :) He definitely has an 80's rock look to him...hehe I'll write details if anything evolves, I'm still trying to restrain my excitement! Anyway, I just hope my closet can keep up...unfortunately my budget is even lower than usual as my parents' divorce is beginning to get worse. I need a job! lol

Btw; I took the picture of the cheshire cat sign in front of the Alice in Wonderland ride in Disneyland on Friday! :)

If you live to be a 100, I want to live to be a 100 minus 1 day so I never have to live without you.

Neon Stilettos has been alive and well for about six months now, and I have finally reached the 100th post marker! :) I will begin posting some more again, I have actually missed posting my weekly-or-so inspirational collages. So, welcome back NS and here's to another 100 posts! ♥

give me a love that will last forever.

Hey everyone! Sorry for not being a faithful blogger like I once was...but to be honest, life has finally begun to speed up for me. I feel like my social life has suddenly exploded and out of nowhere everyone wants to hang out with me. Not to mention weekends are being filled way in advanced, which is actually pretty rad :] I was getting kind of bored of just wasting my life in front of the TV, and just casually browsing blog pages, utterly bored and exhausted of everything and everyone. So anyway, sorry about not blogging daily, and I suppose I'm on a brief hiatus until I get the motivation to continue blogging.

someday i'll fly away.