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Today was certainly a roller coaster! I woke up this morning with a start at 4 in the morning, as if from an awful nightmare (though I can't remember my dream). Despite all attempts, I couldn't fall back asleep, so I just took a shower and relaxed on my bed in a daze. A very dark shadow edged it's way into my thoughts, something I could not shake off but it was a dreadful foreboding. I got dressed and into the car and figured I'd just forget about it as the day continued. As I was stopped at a red light on my way to school, BOOM, my car was jerked forward, and then another thrust. Shit. I've been hit. My hands shaked uncontrollably and I desperately tried to hide my stuttering voice, but I immediately went with my responsibilities. 911 was called, along with my father, information exchanged. He was very nice, but my car looks like absolute shit unfortunately. After a series of various other unfortunate and utterly stressful events the day basically concludes with, my car is in bad shape and my mom refuses to help me out with college tuition. (For those that are unaware, I have a horrible relationship with my mother, my motivation for living was going to college in LA, but apparently we cannot afford my sweet escape.) However, the day wasn't all bad. After my mom's sudden outburst of hate towards me (generally there is some sort of warning), I drove to a nearby park and cried. It's been a long time since I had a good cry, and it was actually quite relieving. I texted my "lover", (I don't know what to call him lmao xD), and we ended up spending an hour or so together, basically drove around, blasting techno, and went to the same park where I had my break down as a way to replace the place with a better memory lol. When we aren't together, he completely confuses me. But when we are together, it feels like everything is just right.
P.S. I found this mix of "happy hardcore" techno music, check it out if you're interested :D
Oh and just to update my faithful readers, I broke up with the boyf last week. I don't miss him in the slightest bit, and honestly I am much happier being single, but apparently he is still hung up. Oh well? I am still positively crazy for this other guy (one lustful posts are dedicated to), but so are like ten other girls, and I fear that I am just another hoe on his list. Nonetheless, I'm going to do my best to stand out from the others, and maybe he'll give me a chance? :)
Till then, I should heed the advice in this song: "Well you can fall in love You could find mister right You will spend all your time to keep him in sight You gotta take a hold of your life Come with me Be single for a while Have some fun and be free" the single life - sarina paris
Your cruel device, Your blood, like ice, One look could kill, My pain, your thrill.
I wanna love you but I better not touch. I wanna hold you but my senses tell me to stop. I wanna kiss you but I want it too much. I wanna taste you but your lips are venomous poison. You're poison running through my veins, You're poison...I don't wanna break these chains.
Your mouth so hot, Your web, I'm caught, Your skin, so wet, Black lace on sweat.
I hear you calling and it's needles and pins. I wanna hurt you just to hear you screaming my name. Don't wanna touch you but you're under my skin. I wanna kiss you but your lips are venomous poison. You're poison running through my veins, You're poison...I don't wanna break these chains.
Running deep inside my veins... Poison burning deep inside my veins.
Here's to a year of constant smiles, tender affection, stolen kisses, and tingling sensations. A year of playful dreaming, overflowing inspirations, luscious cupcakes, and living out even your most secret fantasy.
I made the unicorn mask pictured above with my sister, she went for a more electric, feathered look hehe. I think it's becoming a tradition to go to Micheal's with whatever money we can find after a blow-out with our mum and just make some random art project, last time we made little stuffed animals. xD Anyway, here's how they turned out:
And this is the outfit I wish I could have worn for New Years lol:
"If I had a world of my own, everything would be nonsense. Nothing would be what it is, because everything would be what it isn't. And contrary wise, what is, it wouldn't be. And what it wouldn't be, it would. You see?" Alice in Wonderland
For some reason I have an unusual attraction to vintage tea sets, Alice in Wonderland, and generally anything pink, tiny, or in a bow-shape. I am deeply passionate about fantasies and find everyone's to be quite fascinating, my own to be my most favorite, of course. I also love baking an obscene amount of cupcakes, blogging, techno music, and having intellectual debates.
