Yeah, and the visual is stunning, I hope they document what I'm becoming.

Sorry for being so bad at updating the blog, I've been so preoccupied with Twitter. =P
(Britney Spears, Suicide Girls, and Betsey Johnson is following me! <3)

Other things distracting me...
Running. Beautiful spring weather. Planning my summer. The Electric Daisy Carnival lineup. Boys. Struggling for survival in a house with absolutely no food...and I fail at grocery store shopping. The Ocarina of Rhyme - an amazing hip hop mix to different songs from Ocarina of Time. What I Like About You marathons on TV. Daydreaming. This pole dancer - how did she do this? I must learn! Betsey Johnson store - I may end up splurging on a bag this week. I Only Wanna Be With You by Samantha Fox - the video and song is so cute! Looking up pinup photography & searching for garter belts and lingerie. LMyLife.com - the perfect contradiction to FML. Reading The Confederacy of Dunces for my English class, but I surprisingly like it. This new feeling of empowerment & independence.

So what's been distracting you lately? :)

P.S. Would anyone be interested in creating a new banner for the blog? I feel like the one I have is too small & too boring. Email (brutal.cupcake@gmail.com) or comment me if you're interested! :o)

I'm walking on sunshine~

"It’s spring fever! When you’ve got it, you want...oh, you don’t quite know what it is you do want, but it just fairly makes you heart ache, you want it so!" -Mark Twain


What is it about spring that just completely sends our minds a million miles away from present projects, that fills our minds with flurries of fantasies, and make our heart beats a fluttering? Spring time is about the abundance of sunshine, soaking every ray of light to awaken our hibernating winter bodies. It's about anxiously dipping your toes into a pool, though it isn't exactly hot enough to submerge your whole body into the cold water. It's about shedding layers of unnecessary clothing, experimenting with new looks, and seeing how many new & unique people you can attract into your life. Spring somehow encourages spontaneity, wild flirtation, and lustful romances. It brings out our compassionate side, our connection with Mother Nature & the universe. It encourages us to take risks we wouldn't normally dare to take. Like striking up a conversation with the cute stranger standing behind you in line for coffee, taking a yoga class outdoors, or wearing a pair of fuzzy bunny ears in public. Don't be afraid of being silly, don't be afraid of unfair judgment. The people who hate don't matter, and the people who matter don't hate. Learn to let go of the past. Let all negativity and pain slide off of you like water slides off a duck. Spring is about the new! The opportunities, the encouragement, the passion, the adventure. Take this as a chance to expand your mind, expand your horizons. Read up on topics you've always been interested in...like palm reading, ancient & modern philosophies, or even neuroscience! Get outside, listen to your heart, to the birds, to the wind. Spread some magic, find your calling, show off your sparkling smile. Life is beautiful & you are beautiful!

Just because I'm hurting, doesn't mean I'm hurt.

It's funny how it can take months, at best, to finally put your trust in someone,
put your full heart in someone. It's funny how, despite your better judgment,
you silence your proper instincts and dismiss it all as paranoia, but
in a matter of mere minutes, it all shatters right before your eyes.
The broken pieces of your heart fall to the floor in a neat little pile,
and the only thing you can do is take the time to bend down, sweep them up,
and gently put it all back together. Realizing your mistakes without trying
to punish yourself. Learning so that next time you will know better.
The truth always comes out. That's just how life works. The universe reveals all.
And when that truth does come out, it can either fill you up with confidence
and positive energy, or it can utterly break you. I don't feel as sad as I
thought I would be. I am strong, and I have so much potential. All I can do is
continue moving forward, chasing my dreams and never holding back.
I'm going to shine so bright.

J'ai envie de toi desesperement.

i love...
how you accept my weirdness, and that you're weird too
when you give me a dozen quick kisses, i can't help but giggle with delight
how "let's bake cupcakes" has morphed into a codeword for something else
that you put up with my ridiculous insecurities, intoxicated or not
when you randomly text me to ask how my day is going
that we can go out partying or cuddle on the couch and it's never boring
when i catch you looking at me when we're with other people
the way your body feels pressed up against mine
that this is the first time i have ever felt this way
i love you.