Sunday, June 29, 2008

Come and take a trip with me to a land where love is free.

Only two words can truly capture the pure essence of last night: perfect wonderland. There was A LOT of waiting in traffic to not only get off the freeway exit, but to even enter the stadium, but it was oh so worth it. Once you stepped in, it was a whole new world. A world where everyone followed the simple values of peace, love, happiness, unity, and respect. Ravers are definitely the modern hippie. We were all one. You could seriously start talking to anyone around you about anything and you'd be welcomed with open arms. Everyone was so beautiful in there own way, the entire experience was beautiful, I never wanted to leave. And the music! My God, was it amazing. From the booming bass to the fantastic light shows, I could have died happy right there. Oh, and my "rave name" is officially Bunny. :P Unfortunately, I didn't bring a camera with me so all I have is some photos from the website. My sister did take a few pictures of my outfit before I left though! Enjoy! :o)

Next year, my outfit will be more creative and eccentric :P

Saturday, June 28, 2008

Electric Daisy

Electric Daisy is tonight!! I'm so excited and kind of nervous...I'm not exactly sure if any one of us in our group is very organized lol. Hopefully I'll get pictures to post here! (:

And if any of you would like to get in the mood:

Friday, June 27, 2008

Let's get quizzical.

Okay, so I admit, I was bored and got a little quiz happy...enjoy and post your results if you'd like! :o) I always find these things fascinating lol.

Guys Like That You're Fun

You're the type of girl guys brag about knowing

That's because you're cool, funny, and laid back

You're smart enough to know how to be one of the guys

But flirty enough to know how to make them all want you

You Are An Extrovert!

You have a ton of friends, perhaps more friends than anyone you know.

Nothing to do on Friday night? No problem for you to find the action.

You're friendly, easy to know, and you seem to get along with almost everyone.

You love to express yourself - and everyone knows a good deal about you.

Whether you're giving your opinion or sharing your dreams, you don't keep anything in.

Your Body Image is 84% Unhealthy, 16% Healthy

You don't feel good about the way you look... pretty much ever.

And it's impacting your life so much that you need to seek help.

You've Got a Bit of a Crush

Maybe your guy friend is a crush of convenience - easy enough to happen

Did you just break up with someone? Or are you more lonely than usual?

If no to both, then this small crush could be the real deal.

Find out if he feels the same - because he just might!

Your Political Profile:

Overall: 40% Conservative, 60% Liberal

Social Issues: 25% Conservative, 75% Liberal

Personal Responsibility: 25% Conservative, 75% Liberal

Fiscal Issues: 75% Conservative, 25% Liberal

Ethics: 0% Conservative, 100% Liberal

Defense and Crime: 75% Conservative, 25% Liberal

The Part of You That No One Sees

You are passionate, romantic, and emotional.

You put love first in your life, even though you have often been disappointed by it.

You expect to be swept of your feet, and you never expect infatuation to die out.

Underneath it all, you are scared that you aren't lovable.

Your insecurity has ruined many relationships, as you are unable to see the love that's really there.

You are secretly afraid of being alone. Confronting your insecurities is incredibly painful.

Your Hidden Talent

You are a great communicator. You have a real way with words.

You're never at a loss to explain what you mean or how you feel.

People find it easy to empathize with you, no matter what your situation.

When you're up, you make everyone happy. But when you're down, everyone suffers.

You Should Get An All Over Tattoo

Outrageous and funky

Because you should never have to choose just one tattoo

You Are Medium Maintenance

You aren't as hard to deal with as some girls

But you aren't the most laid back chick either

You're easy to deal with 90% of the time, but watch out for that 10%!

If the guy you are with has good intentions, then calm down a little

But if he's really screwing up, don't waste your breath - move on :-)

Who Should Paint You: Pablo Picasso

Your an expressive soul who shows many emotions, with many subtleties

Only a master painter could represent your glorious contradictions

Your Psyche is Violet

You are spiritual, intuitive, and serene.

People trust you to rescue them from bad situations, and you usually come through.

While you are quite enlightened, you find that your path is very lonely.

When you are too violet: you can't connect to ordinary life or ordinary people

When you don't have enough violet: you lack wisdom and can't learn from the past

Your Body's Element is Water

You are a joyful, relaxed, and luminous person.

You love people. You live for making new friends and helping others.

You are enthusiastic and the ideal person to work with.

You don't mind doing hard tasks, and you have a generous spirit.

Your energy tends to be: conserved

You power color is: black

You Are a Total Tease

You're all about flirting and fun, but you often give guys the wrong idea

Most men think they have a chance with you... but come on!

You've got high standards, and most men you flirt with aren't going to make the grade

And while your tease act will work for a while, every guy you know will eventually be the wiser

Your Lust Quotient: 70%

You are a very lustful person - and it sometimes gets the better of you!

You know how to hold back, but you hardly ever do.

You Are 70% Addicted to Love

Might as well face it, you're very addicted to love.

But you're not really getting the deep love you seek.

Short lived, dramatic relationships are more your style.

Let go of needing someone, and you may find someone you actually want.

You Are 40% Capitalist, 60% Socialist

You tend to be quite wary of businesses, especially big business.

While you know that corporations have their place, you tend to support small, locally owned shops.

As far as the rich go, you think they're usually corrupt and immoral.

You Are a Passionate Kisser

You are the most likely type to kiss a sexy stranger

Your kissing style is unpredictable and free spirited

You could kiss anyone at a drop of a hat

It's all about where your passion leads you

Thursday, June 26, 2008

That which you manifest is before you.

I just finished reading this book, and honestly, I have never been so on the verge of tears or just so emotionally affected by a story. And I'm not generally affected or impressed by much at all, so me saying that is a big deal. :P I couldn't put it down, it was just so riveting and so insightful, I was absolutely touched. But any words that I use to describe it won't do the story justice, I deeply suggest reading it!

Enzo knows he is different from other dogs: a philosopher with a nearly human soul (and an obsession with opposable thumbs), he has educated himself by watching television extensively, and by listening very closely to the words of his master, Denny Swift, an up-and-coming race car driver.
Through Denny, Enzo has gained tremendous insight into the human condition, and he sees that life, like racing, isn't simply about going fast. Using the techniques needed on the race track, one can successfully navigate all of life's ordeals.
On the eve of his death, Enzo takes stock of his life, recalling all that he and his family have been through. Having learned what it takes to be a compassionate and successful person, the wise canine can barely wait until his next lifetime, when he is sure he will return as a man.
A heart-wrenching but deeply funny and ultimately uplifting story of family, love, loyalty, and hope, The Art of Racing in the Rain is a beautifully crafted and captivating look at the wonders and absurdities of human life . . . as only a dog could tell it.

Wednesday, June 25, 2008

dreaming together forever and ever.

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Just a random post - I found these pictures to be quite inspiring :o)
Have a fabulous day! ♥

Tuesday, June 24, 2008

You can be so self-absorbed.

I think all my late night escapades and random adventures have finally caught up to me. I've been sick since Sunday! At first it was just a simple sore throat, but as they day proceeded I felt worse, and now I feel so groggy and slow...I can't be sick...I have the rave this weekend! X_X

Saturday, June 21, 2008

today's outfit.


Shopping at Fashion Island and then kicking it at the beach.
Today was awfully hot and my body is still covered in stingy friction burns from last night's rendez-vous..tehe...^_^;

It's you that ought to be holding me.

Sorry for directly snagging these from the lovely Tinsley, but seriously as soon as I saw these pictures my heart just melted. It captures the eccesnse of my relationship with this one boy. We are not together, nor are we really dating by any other means...we're basically each others booty call. We get together, we party, we do things. Yet I can just feel this sense of yearning for a deeper passion in each other, but that could just be me. Lame, yes I realize that, but I can't help it...and lately I feel like I am beginning to fall for him, but I need to remind myself that it's strictly fun. :P

Friday, June 20, 2008

Your eyes are the size of the moon.

I don't know what it was about today, but I just felt incredibly icky. And that's the best word I can think of to describe it. It's been far too hot and I've been nauseous all day, however, I realize that it's my own fault as my eating habits have been nasty lately. I constantly snack on junk food with no structured meals nor much fruit or veggies. I need to go grocery shopping! Plus I've been feeling so unmotivated and so sluggish, which is due to my lack of real physical activity. I do ab crunches nightly and swim as much as I can, but I realize I should be doing more. Oh! And thank you everyone for the birthday wishes! :D I didn't get any presents, nor did I throw a party like I normally do, but I did get the chance to spend time with darling friends and that was more than I can ask for. I suppose I'm just saving my celebrating for Electric Daisy next week, and hopefully I scored some birthday points with the parents to win some sort of shopping trip or something! I did get a new makes me look 10 years younger, which isn't great because now I look 7...but I think it's cute when I dress up! I shall be posting more outfit posts, just all I have is my cell phone so it's crappy quality.

I was feeling the 60's vibe so excuse the overused peace-sign! x)
If you'd like you can go to this post to compare my old and new hair! Better or worse?


5 Things found in my purse:
1. cell phone
2. mac compact/powder
3. lip gloss
4. hello kitty lighter (tehe)
5. car/house keys

5 Things found in my wallet:
1. school i.d.
2. spare change
3. sanrio store bonus cards
4. seal deal club card
5. peta stickers
(I hardly use my wallet lol)

5 Favorite things in my room:
1. my bed!
2. my closet
3. my red walls
4. Buddha portrait
5. vintage Jimi Hendrix poster

5 Things I've always wanted to do:
1. Travel Europe and Asia
2. Become a modern "club kid"
3. Skydive
4. Start my fashion line
5. Get my tattoos and piercings done

5. Things I'm currently into:
1. Shopping
2. Blogging
3. Partying
4. Partying
5. Partying

5 impressions of my tagger:
1. She's very real
2. has an almost hippie twist to her
3. such a sweet heart
4. a style that is very much her own
5. takes beautiful photos

I was tagged by Vintage Vinyl! And now I'm tagging Qin At The Disco, bi-style, The Blog with the Red Sole, Fashion Is Poison, and fashion chalet.

Thursday, June 19, 2008

Happy Birthday To Me

I am officially 17 now =)

Wednesday, June 18, 2008

today's outfit.


Shirt - forever 21
Shorts - fashion q
Shoes - a random store in Vegas

Sorry for the blurryness of the photo, my cellphone is all I had!
When I first saw those shoes, it was love at first sight! They are so obnoxious, but in the most fabulous way possible. If you can't tell, it's a leopard print with scattered blue roses. I know it doesn't exactly match, but I don't care, I've been waiting for some sort of excuse to wear them!
But yeah, so I plan on wearing them at "nice boy's" graduation ceremony in an hour or two. I hate how as soon as you get all dolled up and realize that you still have so much time left until you get picked up. So I'm sitting here, getting all sweaty, and I just know that by the time he arrives, I'm going to look awful. Oh well xD Hopefully tonight will provide some adventures, I know it's bad since I'm supposed to be his date, but my latest "lust crush" will be there too...oh my. :P

This video makes me want to start working out and dancing! xD

Tuesday, June 17, 2008

qui je suis?

Rummaging through papers
Trudging through the sand
Would you please hold
hold my hand?
I'm empty and I'm hollow
am all I good for is to swallow?
I'm so done.
Yet, I need someone.

It's been a random day, spent primarily on lounging about the house. I was prepared for yet another full blown argument with my mother, full of the typical screaming and slamming of doors, but for once we had a civil conversation pertaining to our relationship. I told her that I need space from her if I am to ever successfully heal myself, and she seemed to have understood. However, it wouldn't be the first time she's led me astray from her true intentions. She's very good at being manipulative when she wants to, and I've certainly learned from the best.
Anyway, I was feeling so good the past few days, and slowly getting better until I find that she's been saying nasty things behind my back to my father and sister. The usual "Michelle is getting so fat." "She needs therapy." sort of things. It really gets to me. To her, she's always right. She can't possibly fathom that I may be depressed because of her constant put downs and plain old negativity. Instead it's just because I'm simply crazy. I feel huge and ugly...which sucks because I was beginning to regain SOME sort of self-worth, but now I'm back at square one.
I just feel so alone and yet when I do have company...I'm even more alone. It's like there is this gap inside me and yet nothing seems to properly fill it. No amount of boys and parties does any justice, it's all just temporary relief, in the end I'm more lonely. Another example, I've once again come across one of those typical "nice" boys, the ones who are very considerate and sweet....and like always, I'm not attracted to him. I can't even pretend to, like I just lose all interest as soon as I see him. And yet I know that compared to the others, he's a much better choice. But instead I still have dreams of my marine ex boyfriend, or I find myself practically praying that the "nice" boy will suddenly turn into my last ex boyfriend. And now I find myself slightly crushing, (though I still won't fully admit to it), on my friend's best friend. But it's mostly physical anyway, he temporarily fills "the gap". But seriously, why are girls always attracted to the "bad boys"? Why can't we just tell ourselves no and settle for those sweet, innocent boys? It only makes life more difficult, and yet I can't help myself!
Oh and in case you are curious, the poem, (well, it's not so much as a poem as it is my emotions attempting to sound melodic), was written when I stopped by a park, (the infamous park where "lustful actions" (trying to be discreet) with the friend's best friend started). It was a random impulse and I took it. And it was worth it, because it was one of those gorgeous summer evenings. The moon is full, the city lights dazzling in the distance, warm air gently cooled down by a soft breeze. I wanted to stay there forever. But I settled for swaying on a swing and singing my emotions to the tune of "Violet Hill" by Coldplay, which is when I thought of this mini poem.

Monday, June 16, 2008

Movies With Great Fashion

So as I'm sitting here, completely bored and full from finishing off all the blueberries, I thought I could entertain myself by putting a list of movies together that I haven't seen and consist of impeccable fashion. I also want to make a point to watch all of them before the end of summer. Here is what I've come up with so far, if you have any more suggestions, please let me know! :D

Bonnie and Clyde

How to Steal a Million

Une Femme est Une Femme

The Virgin Suicides

Requiem for a Dream

Marie Antoinette

The Dreamers

The Talented Mr. Ripley

Rear Window

Funny Face

My Fair Lady

Mona Lisa Smile