Monday, December 29, 2008

my affection, well it comes and goes, I need direction to perfection.

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Family life getting me down and my supposed boyf isn't much help at all. He's very awkward when it comes to these things, but perhaps it's because he comes from such a sheltered, happy, together family. Isn't a bad thing, just apparently makes it hard for him to understand where I am coming from, or reach out emotionally, or put in any input whatsoever. He says absolutely nothing after I confess a suppressed rant on family drama. Nothing. After a few awkward moments of silence, he managed to say "That sucks". *sigh* I need a man to protect me and love me in this stage of my life, not a boy I have to teach how to be a decent lover. Thankfully he is capable of picking up the boyf's slack...(perhaps now the poem in the post below makes more sense?)

25 comments:

Chelsea's Girl said...

cool pics, love your blog!

Cate said...

So... There are two boys... I can just imagine the blank stare your boyf gives you. That REALLY sucks. I had a big fight with my dad today too. But maybe you can't really blame your boyfriend for not really understanding, if he comes from a family where everything is shiny, happy... I'm sure you already explained the circumstances to him... Maybe you should just say 'Maybe you don't understand this because your family is so whole and happy'.

Dooder City said...

Hey Darling,
It's the holidays and it's funny because I went home to Colorado to see my family and of course you think oh man it is the holidays things should be fine but then everything's not because families fight etc. etc. As for your boyf, that guy needs a can of "open up emotionally." You are such an amazing person and you deserve to have someone you feed information through and GET SOME BACK. But you have all of us online who give you advice hehehehe. But I think they guy sounds like he does need to open up and be more responsive and really be in touch emotionally. I wish you luck darling.
xo,
d-

chocandcinnamon said...

Great pictures, as always. U have such a good taste :)
U'll work everything out, sure.

Bella said...

I know whatever happens... you'll make the right decisions, even when the right ones feel wrong.

sending love... xxx

this wheel's on fire said...

That's a tough one my dear...I'm sorry to hear about your family problems. I agree with Cate, maybe you should just tell him I'm sorry, but you just may not understand what I'm going through. I hope your other man situation works out, whatever that may mean...xoxo

Elana said...

-first, im so sorry about stupid family drama, i think we all know that everyone has their share of it...and im sure he has too, but probably not to the same extent as you.
-as for your boyfriend, i think you already know what im going to say. you cant keep this going much longer if you arent happy.. remember what we kept saying to jessica about how the only times she talked about her guy it was negative? u shouldnt be with him if you arent happy.
-oh goodness...honestly, im happy that your happy because of him...maybe its just hard for me to understand because ive never been in that situation (or any situation for that matter haha) but just be careful, i dont want you to get hurt again...
i guess ill see you tomorrow? yay new years!

Krystal said...

love those! x

Trish said...

Your blog is really cool. :)
Happy 2009!! :D

Nemerae said...

Hi!
Thanks :)
Lovely pics again!
I wish you a happy 2009 and with no family problems :S
Byee
xx

CLARITAA . said...

WONDERFULL BLOG
A GIB KISS FOR YOU-

Cate said...

Happy New Year, I hope things will work out for you!

yiqin; said...

Ah love the pattern tights! Happy New Year! :)

Voodoo Child said...

Nice header and photos. I really hope your personal life looks up in the future.

i.d. said...

Oh m'dear, I wish I could fix everything for you. :( It's a new year, hopefully it also means a fresh start. xx

dapper kid said...

Hope the family drama isn't getting you too down dear, and I can understand how the bf might not be so good for turning too. I really do hope things work out for the best and you have a wonderful 2009 :)

Couture Carrie said...

This is one of my favorite collages of yours yet!

Here's hoping your 2009 is fashionably fabulous, darling Michelle!

xoxox,
CC

agnes said...

This is already 2009.. I hope everything will be fine for you my dear :)

essandde said...

Wow! cool photos!
Happy 2009!
x

The Stylish Wanderer said...

Love these.

Merry 2009 lady! hope its fantastic.

Vintage Vinyl said...

Ah! Your blog is so fabulous, as always. And I just love stories from your life and your troubles. I just want to sit down and talk with you about it all. And who is this 'him'? I am so intrigued.

The photos, as always, are lovely. Where do you find most of them?

Voodoo Child said...

Happy oh nine to you as well! fun picutres. I like unicorn mask. skill.

olga from the volga said...

there are no perfect families. i think i could write a soap-opera about my own family. i'm sure you will find someone who can truly understand you!
hug

ryder said...

voila, very cool.

xs said...

i loove that dress with the leopard tights. so fantastic!